I’ve decided to make another of the 10 day blogging challenge posts today since the topic seemed more personal (and therefore worthy of being a Tell All Thursday post).
I’ll preface this post by saying that this was actually a very difficult list for me to make. I try not to do too many things that I’ll regret later … So I can’t honestly say that I truly wish I hadn’t done all of these things. I do, however, think these were some of my worst moments. And while I may not have learned from these mistakes if I hadn’t made them in the first place, I occasionally wish I’d at least been a little smarter at the time.
This week’s topic: 6 Things You Wish You’d Never Done
6.) I wish I’d never gone to graduate school. Going to graduate school helped me realize what I didn’t want to do with my life, which was great. However, I hated it so much that I dropped out after the first year. Now I have student loans (I had none when I completed my undergraduate degree) for a Masters degree I didn’t even earn. I also felt completely stupid when I withdrew from the program … Like I wasn’t smart enough to finish. That wasn’t really the case. I was just miserable and completely uninterested in the subject matter, which led me to be totally unmotivated. Looking back on that time in my life, I’m embarrassed that I actually dropped out (that’s so out of character for me). But, all things considered, I made the right decision for myself and I don’t feel like I’ve been cheated out of any amazing opportunities because of this. I just wish I hadn’t gone through that year in order to figure out where I wanted to go (and also where I didn’t want to go) with my career.
5.) I wish I hadn’t stopped playing piano. I started taking piano lessons when I was young (7 or 8, I can’t remember for sure) because my dad wanted me to. He would take me to my lessons each week (one of the only times he would actually spend time with me) … And that was about it. I never wanted to practice because I wasn’t really into it at the time, and I eventually quit in order to spite him as our relationship continued on its downward spiral. As I got older, though, I kind of started to regret the fact that I didn’t try harder … That I didn’t care enough to stick with it.
4.) I wish I’d been even more involved in on-campus activities in college. This is maybe a stretch because it’s something I wish I’d done that I didn’t do, but I think it still counts. I was involved with quite a few groups, but I always wish I hadn’t given up on some of the things I loved during high school, like drama and dance team. I just really didn’t have the time for those things on top of my classes (and my social life) … Well, not if I wanted to graduate in 4 years. Sometimes I just wish I could have managed to squeeze it all in.
3.) I wish I hadn’t allowed some of my friendships to end so easily. There are a few friends I’ve lost for one reason or another over the years, and in many cases I really think the relationship could have been salvaged. I shouldn’t have just let us drift apart … These people were really important to me, and I still miss them.
2.) I wish I hadn’t hooked up with some of the people I did in the past. I didn’t always make the best decisions when it came to guys, and I definitely went through a very self-destructive phase. Did I learn from my ridiculous mistakes? Well, yeah. Do I wish I hadn’t made so many of them? Most definitely.
1.) Going along with #2, I wish I hadn’t gotten involved with one particular guy. He was verbally and emotionally abusive (and on one occasion did actually throw something at me during an argument), bullied me into many things I didn’t want to do, and stalked me for about 4 months after I finally had the courage to end the relationship. It was actually a very scary experience, but I’m thankful things ended when they did. If they hadn’t, it could have potentially been much worse.